STUN

1. Go to the uni library
2. Find a good computer, preferely in a quiet corner
3. Take up your books, calender, pens etc. and place next to you
4. Log on to the computer
5. Open up what ever page your uni uses to help you learn online
6. Now you are ready to do what you are there for: to slag and update your facebook status, read your favorite blogs such as myselfs and to pick up the latest celeb gossip from any sites possible.
7. Make sure you have enough to drink and eat coz this is going to be a long study session

Starting to freak out over the lack of information given from this university. It does not go well with my worst case scenario overthinking mind. I'm at uni just now, trying to sort it but there is really no information to get online and I've been trying to contact this professor by email but still no answer. My plan now is to go down to de Student Experience and cry for a wett bit and freak out like a typical foreign student.

Miss you all especially today !

To stop drinking. To stop smonking. To take better care of myself. To not overthink every little single thing. To try not to picture the worst case scenario. Was out on saturday with german work mate Johanna and her friends. With white russian for £2 you know it's going to be a good night. First Nice and Sleazy and the O'Neills. A good night all and all, not a club night which I've totally lost interest in nowadays. Cheese and wine party last night at Scaffs house, lovely but drinking a bottle of wine and salty crackers on an empty hung over tummy. Not a good combination. Defeated at 2, thinking I was heading home on my own but it ended up with all the flatmates in a taxi home. Perfect !

Have spent today trying not to get to restless and anxiet and are now about to start my shift at work. At least I'm on with Agata which means a good night AND company on the bus home.

AWESOME ! XOXO

So spent yesterday with my flatmates Sue and Dino, shopping and just having a quiet night in the flat. Working today so I finally have some internet access, which is good. Can't wait to get in the flat, you feel just a wee bit lost with out it. Gonna spend tomorrow trying to find out when and were my classes are next week. They're not really that good with the information about it all. But oh well, it's all good.

Oh well, manage to get some of the uni stuff sorted. I should now be registered to some of my classes but unfortunately they made some changes to the time table. So I had to drop one of the ones I needed. But there isn't really much I can do just now, I've already missed the first course in Sweden and I don't really want to leave. But anyways, things are starting to get in place. If I only can figure out when and where I'm suppose to be next week for my first lecture, that would ease up things just a bit.

It was the best of times, it was the drunkest of times. For some at least.






ABC - it felt like old times but some how I felt a lot older. But oh, good times.

Cardigan - H&M, tee - Marc by Marc Jacobs, pants - H&M, shoes - Converse, scarf - Primark

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I'm going for the football judge look today. Got up early today, at 7.30 to get in to uni to register. The thing is that while I was standing in the shower trying to wake up I realized that I forgot to print out some papers last night at work that I need to be able to register. So I actually got back to bed, watching Gossip Girl. But it turned out quite good because the mail man dropped of the parclet for my package. So I finally got my charger, felt like a long lost love returned when I managed to switch on my phone. Isn't that sad, how lost you feel without your technology ? But oh well, it's all good now. And we'll have internet in the flat in about 1-2 weeks.

Hope to hear from you all soon, now that my phone is working.

XOXO

Guess where I am ???

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Arrived on monday to a rainy but oh so lovely Glasgow. Had i quiet in with Deborah in the flat, which is nice and big. Got a really nice room, as soon as I am settled and bought homie stuff you will get a look of the place, it's really not much to see just yet. Spent the last couple of days feeling the city again, buying stuff for my room and getting to know the new area. Got my first shift at work, iCafé, today which is nice seeing as I don't really have that much to do just now. Longing for my first day at uni, guess you never thought I would say that.

Just for a second. It took me until today to realize, to get it into me head, that I'm actually leaving. Tomorrow. Taking my life and moving to a different country and that the possibility is big that I wont see any friends or family from back home before christmas. But at the same time my stomach is having a war over the excitement and happiness over this journey. It's hard to explain. But I've cried a bit today, saying good bye to my loved ones. It's harder than you think.

Spent last night with my favorite girls, having dinner while watching swedish Idol. Talked about when we were young, the early teens and how that time has affected us now. An absolutely fab night. Today my plan is to finish up packing, go in to town and look for a flat warming gift with Caroline and finish it off with buying some alcohol for the actual party tonight. They've planned a big music quiz and there is a lot of for me unknown people so it's going to be great fun !

I've started to pack. It's when you're suppose to fit your life into two suitcases that you realize how much junk you have. God, it's insane. Just all the clothes. When I started to divide my clothes in to piles with what I wanted to bring and not bring, I thought I did a good job. It was first when I packed one of the suitcases I realized it was way to much. Bought a bigger one today, more like a big bag with wheels and fit basically all my clothes in that one, it was 20 kg more or less. Feel a wee bit better now so hopefully this will all be over on saturday.

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Ok, lets just say I used to have a hard time splitting up from things. I'm a saver, there is always something nostalgic with different pieces. But over the years all my moving has made me realize that you can't save it all. You'll go down and down hard, like Johnny Drama would say. So just now, I've been cleaning out some shit and emptied bag after bag with old close in a big box going straight to a charity shop. But still, I must come to terms with the fact that I still have to much. How I am going to fit all of my shit that I want to bring in to 1 bag of 15 kg, 1 of 20 kg and a wee 1 of 10 ?

Even tho is effin freezing in Sweden just now, there is this festival in my hometown. It's called get a gig and it started up three years ago with the purpose of being a festival for local acts to "get a gig" at. We where there last night, had a blast and left in the end of the only big booking, Hoffmaestro, to go in to town. Knackered and all, I lasted about five minutes at the club so I dragged my sorry and very cold ass home and went to bed.